Nearly 50 and not loving it!

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I hit my 49th birthday about a month ago and it just made me miserable. I’m 50 next year and I am anything but loving it. I feel fat, old and tired all the time. I don’t know if its hormonal or just me but I feel like I am fading into invisibility, like I don’t matter anymore. I don’t say this for people to tell me it’s not true or that I do matter, I say it just to be truthful.

Everything feels like it sucks at the moment. 

Apparently I’m supposed to be going into my wise years, the years where I fully become myself but it feels like I am loosing myself.

Through bringing up children, building a career and just doing life I’ve forgotten what life is about. 

So this year I am going on a journey to find 'it', I have no idea what 'it' will involve of where 'it' will end up but I will share all the ups and downs here. Maybe it will inspire others, maybe it will help others take control of their lives or maybe it will just be me talking to myself but whatever happens will all be fine.

Glad to have you along for the ride.